Day 5 embryos update/genetic test results

I know I know, day 5 for my growing embryos was last Monday.  I'm super lame.

So the 3/8 update left us with 9 fresh embryos still growing and all 6 of my frozen embryos successfully thawed and growing, for a total of 15 embryos.

This number always drops between day 3 and day 5 because the embryos with genetic mutations often stop growing and don't make it to blastocyst.  I was hoping to have 8-10 embryos on day 5.

So Monday afternoon {the 10th} I got too impatient to wait anymore and called my coordinator.  She had just received the report and had it right in front of her to give me the results.

Of the 9 fresh embryos we had, 4 stopped growing, leaving us with 5.

Of the 6 thawed embryos we had, 5 stopped growing, leaving us with 1.

So a total of 6 left.

I'm not gonna lie... I was kind of crushed.  I was hoping for a higher number in case there were a lot of the embryos that were 'abnormal', which I wouldn't know until after the genetic test results came back.

I don't know why but this whole IVF cycle I keep getting down on myself.  I keep thinking that maybe I should have waited another month.  Maybe then my body would have reacted a little better.  I tried having, what I thought, were reasonable expectations for each step of the process... but I compared everything to my last cycle, and as many who have tried IVF multiple times can attest, each cycle is NOT the same.  I get it now.  I know part of my problem is I didn't mentally set myself up to handle failure like I did last time.  My expectations were simply too high.  Or, I should have gone into this having no expectations and take everything one baby step at a time.
Jared told me to stop being so negative and that everything will be fine.

The very next morning, first thing, I received a call with the genetic test results.
5 of the 6 embryos tested NORMAL!!!  FIVE!  Only one embryo was abnormal.  This is kind of huge.  For someone my age about half the embryos come back abnormal.  My dr. told me that my results are right in there with the 22 year olds and I'm shooting with one hand behind my back {since I only have one ovary}.  I am ecstatic about those results and definitely feeling a lot better.
The embryos are all 'high quality' and I have about an 80% chance of getting pregnant with each one.
Oh yeah... and we know the genders :)
2 boys and 3 girls!

Now I just have to wait for my period to start and we can get this party started.