Getting anxious

I was doing so good!  

I haven't been thinking about if I might be pregnant or not 24/7 like everyone told me I would be.  Of course I have the thought every day "Am I?" but I haven't been obsessing over it... until now.  

I feel like almost everyone I know is either pregnant, or just had their little baby.  I LOVE looking at pictures of the new babies and I love seeing pictures of mommy to be's with beautiful big bellies.  But I think the last blog I read was, hmmm, how do I even say this?  It was just so beautiful that my jealous level became higher than my 'I'm so excited for you that I'm not even thinking about me' level and I started thinking about me.  I want a baby sooooo bad.  I want to know if I'm pregnant.  I want to know if I get to be a mommy soon too!  I don't know how Jared can be so cool about all of this.  He acts like it doesn't even phase him.  Maybe it doesn't.  Apparently things affect men differently than women so maybe he really doesn't have a million different thoughts and feeling raging through his mind right now.

Oh well.  At least the first week of waiting didn't feel like forever.

I have 4 days left.  It doesn't sound long, but just saying it feels like it's forever away.

For the pregnancy test, they'll do bloodwork to check my HCG levels and such and that's how they can tell if I am pregnant or not.  Which means I won't get the call with the results until later in the afternoon.  Which means I'll have to wait allllll daaayyyyyy.

It will be the longest. day. ever.

But it will be worth it.

All of this will be sooooo worth it.  Now if I can just find something to distract myself with for the next 4 days....