The first injection

This morning I had my appt. with HRC.  They did an u/s (ultrasound) which I was NOT expecting and was not prepared for.  See... they don't do "regular" ultrasounds there where they squirt gel on your tummy and look around.  Nope.  They are vaginal u/s.  I'll leave it at, they are not comfortable, definitely give me cramps and are just not my favorite thing ever.  I have to mentally prepare myself for these things.  Seriously, I think it's worse than a well woman exam.  So anyway, the dr. did the u/s and then I went to a conf. room where a nurse showed Jared and I how to do all the injection stuff.  How to draw the medicine into the needle, how to get the air out of the needle, sterilizing my skin and the injection part.  We got to practice with a needle, water and this flubbery thing that was supposed to simulate human skin.  Apparently when you do the injection, you're supposed to stick it in 'dart like'.  So basically, pinch your skin and then JAM the needle in there.  She says if you go slow it hurts more.  Yay.  I asked her if anyone had accidentally jammed the needle into the hand they were pinching the skin with.  She said no but I don't believe her.

I'm a little disappointed because I did not get to do my injection this morning.  They want the injections done at nighttime at the same time every day.  I was hoping I would be able to take the injection right when I wake up so that it wouldn't interfere with my schedule at nights.  Oh well.  I guess I just won't have a life for the next 3 weeks.  

I won't have one anyway once I actually have a kid so I guess I may as well get used to it right?

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Okay... so now it's nighttime and time for my injection.  Yikes!  I have to admit, I'm super nervous.  I haven't really decided if I want to make Jared do it or if I want to try doing it myself.  Probably I should let Jared do it.  I'm too nervous.  What if I stick my hand?!  I can do the injection in either my stomach or my thigh... I haven't decided where to do it either.  Maybe I should try one place today and the other tomorrow and then I'll stick with whatever hurts less?

So this is the stuff that I'm injecting into myself.

{This drug will increase my LH-luteinizing hormone and FSH-follicle stimulating hormone levels while suppressing my pituitaty gland- which is responsible for triggering ovulation.  Basically this means I'll make lots of eggs, but they'll stay in my ovary}  Side effects of this stuff: Hot flashes, sweating, headache, inflammations of the vagina, general pain, nausea, vomiting, dizziness, and decreased sexual desire.  Sweet.  Just what I wanted, haha.

And this is the needle

It's not as bad as the other needle.

See? ^ 

This one looks much more intimidating... well, the picture doesn't really do it justice.  You can't see the length of this needle very well 

but I promise it's scary. 

{It's like, twice the size of the other one}

Oh and here's all my drugs.

I have a pharmacy in my house now.  Yippy.

Okay I'll stop putting off doing this thing.  I decided I'm going to have Jared do it... in my thigh?  I guess I'll try my thigh first.  That sounds like it won't hurt as much.  Here goes.

I bled a little :(

 All done!  Seriously?  That was it?

I love my bandaid :)

Okay... so now I feel like a baby because that really wasn't bad.  

At all actually.

See?  Happy as a clam! :)

Right after Jared finished the shot, the injection site itched really bad.  I'm not gonna lie, I've been freaking out.  What if I'm allergic to the Lupron?!  Is there something else they could give me that would do the same thing?  What if there isn't anything else?  What if I'm allergic to this and there isn't anything else that I could take and so now we can't have kids?!!!!!!  Fifteen minutes later the itching is now gone and I'm all better.  I'm done freaking out {for now}.  I can totally do this for 3 weeks.