The fast

Today TONS of people fasted on behalf of Wyatt.

People I have never even met are offering up prayers for him.

People in countries across the world have sent me the nicest messages letting me know that they constantly think about him and wish him the very best.  It's amazing to me how many lives he has already touched... and he doesn't even know it.  Or maybe he does.  I think little babies are very in tune with Heavenly Father and with angels so maybe he does know all the love that's being sent his way.  Because angles are definitely watching over him.

After the conclusion of the fast today I felt really good inside.

I have no idea what this week, or even tomorrow is going to bring.

But I know that at the end of this, everything is going to be okay.

Wyatt is going to be okay.

He is going to grow up in a loving family and he is going to know that he is special.  He is not going to let his skin condition define him.  He will embrace it, but it will not define his life.  And he is going to be extra awesome because I don't think he is going to have a judgemental bone in his entire body, just like his dad.

Wyatt is going to overcome every challenge that he is going to encounter in his life.  No, he will conquer them.  I really believe that he is going to live up to his name and he will be a modern day warrior.

This last week I struggled a lot.  Not knowing why we are given the challenges that we are given in this life.  Friday was especially hard for me.  I questioned a lot as to WHY Wyatt has to experience the pain that is brought on with this skin condition.

On Saturday I didn't go to the hospital.  Jared went, but I took the day "off".  I stayed home and cleaned and paid bills and then I just sat on the couch and watched a little t.v.  It felt soooo weird to not be by Wyatt's side and I really missed him a lot.  Jared obliged me with lots of pictures and a skype session so I could see Wyatt.  And while it was hard for me to be away from him, I feel re energized to be able to go for another 3 weeks.  While I was home cleaning, I came across a poem that was on Jareds nightstand.  As I read the poem, I cried, because I knew Heavenly Father was giving me an answer to all the questioning that I've been doing over the past couple of weeks.  This is the poem...

The Monument

God, before he sent his children to Earth

Gave each of them

a very carefully selected package

of problems.

These, He promised, smiling

are yours alone. No one

else may have the blessings

these problems will bring you.

And only you

have the special talents and abilities

that will be needed

to make these problems

Your servants.

Now go down to your birth

and to your forgetfulness. Know that

I love you beyond measure.

These problems that I give you

are a symbol of that love.

The monument you make of your life

with the help of your problems

will be a symbol of your

Love for me.

Your Father.

From Charlie's Monument

If you've never read Charlie's Monument, I highly recommend you do.  But you should make sure to have a few tissues on hand.

Whatever this week brings, I know there is a reason for it and I know that at the end of the day {or week, or month or whenever} everything will turn out okay.  God has a purpose in all of this and I just need to embrace it and have faith in his plans for Wyatt.